"Every step I have taken..I have done so that I can become closer to you" -The sweetest lie that I have ever said.

I remember a few months ago when I just want to see him, ever for just a second or two, then it will make my day complete. I miss the times when he doesn't even know me and that I could only see him from afar. I miss the moments when I would just keep the kilig to myself just because I don't want to tell everyone that I really like him. I wish hope I can erase all these and just forget about him.. BUT...I CAN'T.

How can I be so stupid? I could have not wished him a happy birthday and not be part of his life. Then, I WILL BE HAPPY. Knowing him is not what I'd intented to do. I swear being strangers is far more acceptable that being like this -strangers AGAIN.

I now live in a tragic place, a place where anyone can experience sadness; despair. I could've asked for a different prayer to be answered, a more important one. Then all of us would be happy. I can never forgive myself for taking so much steps to become closer to him. It's possible. IT WAS. But then again, it isn't and will not be anymore.



I LIKED HIM. I LIKED HIM SO MUCH.