DEAD
I don't know what to do anymore. T_T
The fact that HE WILL NEVER REALIZE MY EFFORTS, it's kinda depressing. Though you can't really tell, I honestly don't wanna let my feelings go. I just don't. My friends keep on telling me to move on and that nothing's gonna happen. Yes! they're right. But I'll take the risks of being hurt rather than to give up on something that i never had and will never have.
Maybe we're not meant for each other. Am i trying too hard? Yeah. I really am trying too hard. I'm trying to fit in to something that i will never belong. It's kinda frustrated because I just can't feel him, like he doesn't care about me AS A FRIEND? I'm just being paranoid.
I can't help but blame him. I keep on blaming him. I WOULDN'T FALL FOR HIM IF HE WASN'T THAT "THAT". Know what i mean? and right now, it sucks cause we can never be more than friends.
I just wanna unwind the time, not because I want him to change his feelings for his "love", but for the reason that I don't want to fall for him. But I can't unwind the time. No one can unwind the time. I'm stuck here in this never-ending life full of torture, misery and sadness. :(
[I AINT BEING EMO FYI =)) ] LOL
RAR
The fact that HE WILL NEVER REALIZE MY EFFORTS, it's kinda depressing. Though you can't really tell, I honestly don't wanna let my feelings go. I just don't. My friends keep on telling me to move on and that nothing's gonna happen. Yes! they're right. But I'll take the risks of being hurt rather than to give up on something that i never had and will never have.
Maybe we're not meant for each other. Am i trying too hard? Yeah. I really am trying too hard. I'm trying to fit in to something that i will never belong. It's kinda frustrated because I just can't feel him, like he doesn't care about me AS A FRIEND? I'm just being paranoid.
I can't help but blame him. I keep on blaming him. I WOULDN'T FALL FOR HIM IF HE WASN'T THAT "THAT". Know what i mean? and right now, it sucks cause we can never be more than friends.
I just wanna unwind the time, not because I want him to change his feelings for his "love", but for the reason that I don't want to fall for him. But I can't unwind the time. No one can unwind the time. I'm stuck here in this never-ending life full of torture, misery and sadness. :(
[I AINT BEING EMO FYI =)) ] LOL
RAR